I recently heard someone say something while I was watching television that struck a chord deeply within my soul. (and they say television and music supposedly have no effect on people..lol)
The statement that was made was something to the effect of:
“I don’t just Love you..I “Trust” You and that is way more important.”
Those words hit me like a ton of bricks…Bam!
Because in that instant I realized that this is one of my truths as well.
For me..”Trust” is indeed a word that surpasses the basic meaning of the word “Love”
If I can not fully Trust you..then I can not fully Love you.
Because Love is a greatly misused and over used term..but Trust?
Well that’s a whole other ball game.
I have to honestly say that I don’t Trust many people..so few in fact that I don’t even need a whole hand to count them on.
Personally I am open with my thoughts and emotions to a point that many people can’t even
understand, but I see no benefit in deceiving anyone or allowing myself to be deceived either.
How can you really open yourself up and relate to someone if there is always a small little wonder or concern in the back of your mind, wondering if this person is really who he or she says..they are?
The focus leaves the “building” and bonding part of a relationship or friendship by the wayside and instead of relating..it turns into “Defense.”
Now how in the world are you supposed to share your heart and soul with someone who makes you feel like along with flowers, candy and a bottle of wine..that you need to also pack weapons of mass destruction for your date or interaction with them?
Does this not sever a tie, or burn a bridge..before it can even be built?
I don’t know..maybe I am still naive about these things..but I would rather a person exposé to me the worst (or what they think is the worst about themselves) and allow me to experience them as they truly are..the wholeness of them..and be able to look past their indiscretions and mistakes, because we are all human..and we all make them…to offer forgiveness and understanding..where they may not even be able to offer it to themselves..
Than to be presented with an Imposter that I spend time with, who appears to be one thing on the outside..but on the inside..has a whole other thing going on.
I want to see the Real person, flawed, beautiful and human..not the person that you “think” I want to see. “Perfect Patty” or “Perfect Paul”….because in reality..that person doesn’t even exist.
I want to see YOU..with all your imperfections..because in its own right..imperfection..is Divine.
Having a history or a past..is nothing to be ashamed of..we all do.
Some things we HAD to go through to bring us to a higher vantage point in life.
Remember the bitter..and the sweet?
It all goes together.
“Open to me..so that I may open. Provide me your Inspiration..So that I might..see mine.”-Rumi